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if you've been on tiktok over maybe the past 1 or 2 weeks, you may have seen a trend of videos emerge in which people come to the internet to share their "Realistic Pokemon Teams". not a team they've created in a game, not a team they wish they could have if pokemon were real; just 6 pokemon that they (if we lived in a universe where pokemon roamed the earth with us) could actually obtain. theres a couple different categories of how people decide that a pokemon is one they could 'realistically' get:

1. pokemon found in the fictional region that is based on the real place they live in (ex. if they live in hawaii, they could find alolan pokemon)
2. pokemon that are similar to the native wildlife around them (ex. if they live in a mountainous region, they could claim that a skiddo is realistic)
3. pokemon that relate to experiences in their life (ex. someone studying nursing could say they have a chansey)
4. pokemon where they're like 'ok just give me this one' (aka a pokemon that isnt some crazy legendary but doesnt fit into the previous categories)

i love the concept of pokemon and i like assigning pokemon to people as i have done before with people such as f** b*** (groupchat name censored for self-respect reasons). when i was still young enough where i attended summer day camps, i remember i would spend extra time in the art room instead of going out to play soccer or interact with fellow campiers so i could work on drawing my friends and i as pokemon trainers. either that or i would design my own gym leaders (i loved creating water type characters, i remember that specifically). i cant say i was ever, like, a pokemon fanatic like some people are. i collected and traded cards as a kid on the bus to school (until they banned them on the bus and at school because kids would make room in their backpacks for Pokemon Binders instead of Homework Binders LOL), i watched the tv show when it came on cable, and i even got really addicted to that discord pokebot where you had to memorize the names of all the pokemon in order to 'catch' them before other server members. oh, and also i played pokemon go obviously. but a lot of these are just the normal amount of obsessed that young kids had with pokemon during the time when i was a kid so i didnt stand out as some #1 pokemon fan OAT, y'know? anyways, enough of me reminiscing on my past with pokemon - let's circle back to the first thing i talked about in this post. i now present to you what i think could be my "realistic" pokemon team. also remember that a pokemon team comprises of 6 pokemon Okayy LETS GO!


my first pokemon: oshawott
i was born in and have always lived in the area that the Unova region is based off of and therefore my starters would be the option of snivy, tepig, and oshawott. ive always loved oshawott as a pokemon fan and he's just super cute so i think little me would have picked him up. snivy would have scared me as a snake and although i would have loved tepig, i think the fire aspect would have scared little me off. also, i think a key moment of my life would have been when i started liking the group lunarsolar, seeing their fandom name is haedal (meaning sea otter in korean), and then looking at oshawott and being like 'look!! its fate! thats you!!!'

  

my second pokemon: pidgey
ok so if unova is based off NYC lets think of an animal that the city is known for. hmmmm.. pidgeons. yup. yes theres also pidove which is a lot more pidgeon looking than pidgey but the birds i mainly see now and at an age where i would have been trusted enough to really catch and keep my first pokemon look more like pidgey. its a very common pokemon and its small enough but also useful where once it evolves, i could have my pidgeotto deliver or pick up things for me that i dont want to drive to. 

  

my third pokemon: lillipup or rockruff
this one is simple. i like dogs and i have a dog. maybe this pokemon would have been a gift from my parents and so a cute little friendly pet pokemon such as lillipup would be great. rockruff is also a possibility and i like their design better tbh. both of them and their evolutions are smart, loyal, protective, and kind: all the rthings a parent would want for a pokemon to protect their child.

  
 
my fourth pokemon: emolga
emolga is also a simple one simply because i know that ive always liked cute things and also flying squirrels are native to the state i live in (and emolga was introduced alongside unova so dingdingding another win for regional accuracy) so it would have not been surprusing for me to come across one on my own once i was a little more grown. i would have said aww cute squirrel i want u and emolga is also just the perfect friend to bring along. i loved emolga in the anime and so ive always had a little attachment to it and i think a me in which pokemon were real would also love an emolga. it also doesnt evolve which would make me haopy because i dont like change and i know my emolga would stay cute forever.

  

my fifth pokemon: mimikyu
mimikyu is a rarer pokemon i think but i feel like the years after covid hid when i was kind of just alone and isolated myself during high school i would have managed to stumble across a mimikyu and just felt so connected with it and wanted to love it and protect it forever. he hides himself behind a pikachu disguise because he believes everyone loves pikachu and the real him would kill people that see it and i think i do the same thing where i just dont want people to hate Me so i dont be me around others which just ends up isolating me.

  

my sixth pokemon: audino
i think i'd catch audino in my first year of college when i needed a friend and someone who would care. audino is a very caring and nurse-like pokemon and also connections with my enjoyment of music (audio) and the fact that i was majoring i speech hearing. and even as a education major, i think an audino would be very helpful with young children. yoiunger kids arent great at expressing their feelings as more developed humans and so having an audino who is able to feel and understand the conditions of others by being in contact with them would be very useful. i'd also just love going on walks with my audino and making them happy the way they'd help make me happy

  

okay thanks for tuning in to my pokemon team :) not 100% sure if this is true because maybe togepi, axew, carbink, or spoink would be there too instead of someone here... who knows. if u also have seen this trend u should comment what your 'realistic team' (or even just 1 pokemon u think would be in that team) is!!! i wanna see

i'm struggling to write stories or any sort of narrative text, fiction or not. whether it's retelling something that has actually happened in my life or trying to bring an entirely new world and characters to life through text, i've become incredibly self-conscious about my writing. in middle school, i used to lovee creative fiction writing and as one of my friends was actually working on creating a book, i would spend hours adding my comments and changes to the story and discussing with her about plot, setting, continuity, detail, etc. since maybe high school however, it's all of a suddenn soo much harder to a point where sometimes, i just would rather fail an assignment.

this happened in a high school class on ancient literature and myths where we had to write a dialogue between 2 characters from two different myths where they would discuss a certain theme that was shared across their stories... and i literally just didn't write it. it was one part of a multi-part final and i was too 'cringed-out' because it felt like i was writing fanfiction. now mind you i still passed that exam easily #BigWin but that moment has stuck with me as a time i remember why i have a hard time writing fiction: i feel cringe. 

i think the characters arent good enough, my sentences don't flow, the words are too basic, theres not enough or too MUCH detail, etc. how can i have confidence in my writing if i cant even get a sentence down? how can i improve without starting at all? like girl if you don't just get over yourself and put some pen (keyboard) to paper (google docs) already and TRY... anyways. imma try to write something now. let's hope this goes ok 

which of the 7 deadly sins do you think you embody the most? i was going to say that i was greed, but then i remembered that greed and gluttony are two separate sins in this mode of classification. when looking up definitions, you mainly see gluttony associated with excess food consumption or drinking, which leads us to believe that gluttony is the desire for food while greed is for everything else. however in some definitions of greed, food is still mentioned as an item that one may have a "selfish, insatiable desire" for. so now we run into an issue of overlap depending on one's operational definitions of greed and gluttony in the context of sin.

i found two different explanations by two different people that helped me to separate the two terms:

a) "greed deals with the desire, while gluttony deals with the indulgence"
b) "greed is wanting it for the sake of having it. white gluttony is the wanting it for the pleasure of consuming or using it"

theres a ton of other explanations too, some of which genuinely do say that food should only be limited to gluttony in order to separate the two, but i disagree with that sentiment. i think that greed is the want to have something so that others do not have it, you wish to limit it's supply to only be held by yourself as much as possible. gluttony i guess would have less of a focus on the perspective of others then as all that matters is your overindulgence of whatever you have. who cares if other people are also indulging in the same thing; all that matters to you is that you can overindulge.

now that i actually had to do some research into these definitions (and no, i'm not gonna research all the 7 deadly sins because i don't really care that much. this was supposed to just be a throw away, one sentence post) i have come to the conclusion that the deadly sin i embody the most isss... sloth.

thats right. all that research just to remember that sloth is a deadly sin and hey, that's actually much more what i think i fall victim to over greed or gluttony. oops.

i feel like every year i overhype the holiday season, eventually leading to my disappointment when the month of december isn't filled with the "christmas magic" that i was hoping for. it's a mix of things that have caused this: a lack of snow (thanks global warming), getting older and losing belief in magic like santa (thanks the concept of aging and time), being in a worse place mentally (thanks uhh.. i don't know, myself?), etc. aside from the glow of the fireplace, the season just doesn't hold the spark that i so desperately want to experience again.
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