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so.. i haven't made a post in 3 days. AND THATS NOT MY FAULT!!!! okay so my last post was june 3rd amd then on the 4th i had a crazy ass day at work we got completely slammed in the last 2 hours and so when i got home i just took a shower and went to bed. i was not thinking 'wow let me write an entry for my monthly challenge!' no dawg i was thinking Let's hit the hay and call it a day (wow that rhymes). yesterday i have less of an excuse i was just in the city and when i got back i was tired from walking around and whatnot and had an early appointment the next day (aka today) and so i went to bed early: lights out by 10. i'm gonna make 2 mini entries in this entry to make up for what i didn't do the past two days okay awesome

6/4: ive been working the same summer job for a few years now just because its reliable, decent pay, and i know the people there so it's comfortable and easy to return to. i like all my co-workers we're all like high school to college students working in the front and so everyone is able to get along and joke and stuff and then our manager is obviously an Adult with a wife and kids but he's funny and chill so everything is great. the start of this year was pretty slow mainly due to weather stuff but now that private schools in the area are out for summer, it's getting busier by the day; and so of course the day we got slammed randomly happened because 2 private schools near the area had just gotten out for summer. we made decent tips though like i walked away with $100 in tips for the day on top of 9 hrs hourly pay so thanks for the money i guess. taking a moment to complain about these two people who had checks that were $115-170 dollars each and they didn't tip at all. just mean like wtff this is why we're slapping british people. i do, however, respect that more than people who just leave without closing their check so they don't have to face us while not leaving a tip. we know what you're doing and you are nott slick. the next 3 days for me are all full shifts at work and i think i might kill myself so im gonna see if anyone wants to try and cover at least half a shift of mine on monday because lord knows im not surviving a full weekend and then a Monday. give me some grace pleasee.

6/5: so i went into the city (downtown flushing to be exact) and i love going to all the little mini 'countries' in the city like little italy, ktown, chinatown, etc. i especially love little italy and mott street chinatown because of the lights they hang over the streets and even the big 'welcome to little italy' sign that really makes you feel like you're stepping into a little community while still obviously being in nyc because of the buildings and layout. i saw someone the other day say that being in flushing felt like 'being in china in new york' which i mean yeah that seems obvious because its chinatown in new york but i like how the size of the city allows for a place where you can experience all sorts of things while still realizing that you're connected through The City tm. whenever im in the city i try to avoid getting things ive gotten before because i know theres so many good things (food. let me be clear im talking about food) i havent tried yet and if i were to just eat the same things sure i'd be happy but i might miss something else. i have only failed this when i got the pork bun from mei lai wah twice but in my defense it was good as hell and i also paid both times with cash so i had ZERO line. okay but speaking of that people need to bring more cash around. the 2nd time i went to MLW i literally skipped a huge ass line and got my pork bun in 30 seconds all because i had $4 of cash on me. it was that easy. so advice is just bring cash. imma make a post on what i ate in flushing with reviews for today's post so stay tuned for that thanks

Current Mood: rejuvenated
Current Music: love in bloom (ily:1)

im a kpop fan through and through but somehow i accidently fell down the =love rabbit hole around a year (?) ago and it's the greatest thing to ever happen. their lyrics are genuinely just so impactful and their vocals have so much emotion. i didn't love their recent release (tokubechu shite) despite it kind of having that same upbeat, positive and princess-y sound as zettai idol yaminaide, but that might be why i didn't love it. they released zettai idol right after norotte norotte which i also LOVED, but had a completely different sound. they were both something exciting and fun to dive into. tokubechu shite just didnt excite me and compared to zettai idol, it wasn't nearly as interesting. although i love tghe success it's been seeing and the opportunities the group has been receiving over the past few months, i still hope sasshi remembers to switch it up; especially with center members!!! i'd love to see a more elegant song with a sana center, or a fun, bouncy, summer song with a hitomi center to let her vocals shine!

ikorabu has done a lot of different concepts over the years, but i think theres definitely one i find being my favorite and thats the darker, more intense songs. heres a quick list of some of my favorite songs by them that you should check out :3c

1. iranai twintail (AWESOMEE live stage)

i love the lyrics of this song: "i'm not living my life matching your wishes. favored by men? i can't hear you! female high-school students don't feel like flattering you!"
2. shirankedo (live performance)
side note: this is the song that made me really check out the group because i watched the music video and was enamored with iori :3
3. haikei anata sama (live performance)
im one of the top listeners to this song apparently
4. anoko complex (live performance)
popular and for a good reason. not my favorite music video of theirs though so i'll give you the live version. the story just doesnt captivate me as much as teokure cautions
5. norotte norotte (cute dance break in the mv outfits)
IORI CENTERRR
6. poison girl (music video)
little bit of evil in it to match the other songs on this list but sound-wise its much cuter and poppier. im a liar! <-- lyric from the song thats always stuck in my head

Current Music: iranai twintail (=love)

does anyone else feel as though kpop has been really boring so far this year? sure we’re only halfway through the year so i’m sure there will be hits to come but it's currently june 1st and the only real stand out song for me so far is UNIS’s Swicy (and yum by kepler but thats in japanese and i don’t know if i could objectively say its GOOD… it's catchy af though and i enjoy it). i’ve always been a 4th gen defender when it comes to musical eras of kpop because people lovedd to complain that 4th gen was the noise music gen and all their music sucked as if we didn’t have concept geniuses like PinkFantasy and musical-concept legends like GWSN. kpop has kind of always been about following trends but right now i feel like so many companies have seen the heights that idol groups can reach with western popularity and are tailoring some concepts to be more “acceptable” for a general public rather than just allowing crazy idol weirdness for idol fans to enjoy. Idgaf if the average person wouldn't like pinky star!!!! I like it!!!

a lot of the concepts have been super cute and i think we’re getting really creative with packaging and merch which is fun but also why does the music just not match in quality. listening to illit’s snippets for their upcoming comeback ‘bomb’ made me both excited and annoyed because all the songs seemed great… in concept. As in when i was listening to all the short audio clips, every song just felt as if something was either missing or off. Can kpop producers not hear these things when making their songs? Why are you allowing bad producing or lazy lyrics or flat teaser photos or incredibly plain album covers to be used as final products? It pisses me off more than anything because a lot of these big companies know they can just put out whatever and it’ll sell, even if it isn't great quality. how do we go from the adorable packaging of super real me to the incredibly plain and boring covers of bomb? i’m not buying that bro it’s ugly and unoriginal and a waste of materials to make and space in my room. theres actually a ton of albums i regret buying from my ‘i like kpop :) and buying albums :)’ phase in 2021 that i wish i could get rid of and so maybe ill ask kpop nara or something if i can just drop them and some photocards off because i dont want thesee. Just let me have my gwsn and exid stuff and i’ll be able to smile

speaking of merch, i just think the difference between korean idol and japanese idol merch is so interesting to observe. The entirety of the difference in the two industries actually is just really interesting and it often throws me off when getting =love versus illit stuff because of how standard sizing of photos and what is actually being sold (ex. lightsticks, shirts, standees, etc.) differs. =love has a whole new line for every concert, each with a set concept. The closest thing kpop really has to that are season’s greetings/memberships i feel like. In the sense that its an (bi)-annual thing with a concept and many different forms of merch outside just photocards. ALSO speaking of merch: fan creations are soo much better than official company things. I’m making a friend act as a proxy for me so i can get some fanmade illit stuff off weibo cause its 100% cuter than anything hybe is or will ever put out. alright midnight rant about effort and quality in kpop is over. goodnight!

Current Location: bed time

After quite literally an hour of messing around with different links and streaming services, my friend and I finally started watching Spirited Away. Wow, it only took from 10:00 to 10:59 for us to figure out that Watch2Gether wasn't gonna work. We instead settled on the tried and true method of “OK let’s both press play at the same time and just hope our movies line up” and so far it’s working so I mean… good for us!

We’re only ~30 minutes in so far so I can’t give a real solid review or anything but these little spider creatures are so cute because why’d they all commit mass suicide so she could have a job to survive in spirit world. Also this movie is secretly horror because that scene where we get back to her parents and they’re just pigs is terrifying. Personally, if I was like 11 and my parents became horrifying hogs I’d just throw myself into the river and die; sorry for being a coward that's just how I am. Also notice how all of this could have just been avoided if Chihiro’s parents were just actually good and responsible parents. You have a house you’re supposed to be moving into AND your daughter is reasonably scared of the mysterious tunnel but nooo of course you have to go explore the creepy abandoned tunnel and get the whole family stuck in spirit maze world extravaganza 4000. Worst parents ever award winner 5 years running.

I know everyone says Studio Ghibli movies have such a calming and pleasant feel to them but it really is true. The colors, details and yet simplicity of the animation, voice acting, and ESPECIALLY the soundtracks are so immersing and make you both want to curl up and fall asleep to them but also you can’t sleep because you’re invested in whatever story it’s telling. The story here? Girl tries to become employed, aka the story of most people in the United States nowadays.

Final note: some of the spirits in this place looking like humans is confusing the hell out of me because what do you mean you’re sooo focused on finding the “human” when your ass looks exactly like her... now how am I supposed to tell the difference? Okay let’s hope I don’t fall asleep before this movie ends otherwise I’ll ruin Saturday Movie Night for Friend.

I lied THIS is the Final note: Lin and Haku are sooo cutieful I love them already

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: cupid (kara)

let’s talk about some characters I like because i just want to write a simple piece today. More specifically, i’m going to talk about the male characters in fiction i enjoy because if i talked about girls this would be too long of an entry to complete before midnight. alright, let’s go!

Oh Beomseok (Weak Hero)

thank you and go to hell tokkipul for introducing me to this show and the absolute final destination ass rollercoaster ride that beomseok brings the viewer on. I always had a bad feeling that something was going to go horribly wrong with him but by episode 3 i had lost that feeling only to get whacked in the face with the karaoke scene. i’ll make a whole post dedicated to beomseok one of these days because he’s legit currently my favorite character from any piece of media and i think we should all kill his dad. no ok by side tangent i fully understand why whc1 viewers could hate his ass like i'm never surprised when someone says ‘i hate beomseok’ because trust me bro i also wanna slap him but the thing is like the urge and want to slap him is quite literally the only thing he’s ever known. like all the people in his life that are supposed to show him love and protect him only show him pain and hurt so obviously this 16 year old is going to be mentally messed up. How can you watch the scene where his dad makes him do a whole embarrassment ritual of stripping down to his boxers, kneeling on the ground, and getting hit with a golf club and then be like Wow this guy should have just communicated better. Brother who on earth was going to teach that boy to communicate in any other language other than violence. Anyways…. Beomseok you literally make me want to kill myself. U the goat though. But also you’re not because you have created a terrible name for glasses wearing cowardly, easily-attached and jealous people everywhere. Guyss i swearrr im not going to kick you inrto a coma thats not alll of us

Wylan van Eck (Six of Crows)

when middle school me realized gay people are real and chill af. No im kidding but i did grab onto wylan because out of the whole gang in SoC he was the outcast who was kind of out of his depth and everyone doubted in the start and didnt think belonged but then everyone realized wow wait ur actually kind of a little shit once you have enough courage to talk and i thought that was really funny. You will notice a running trend of me liking the nerdy/underdog/cowardly male characters who actually have some spunk to them just not in a physical strength way.

Dipper Pines (Gravity Falls)

lowkey i think i good way to describe me as a person is just both of the pines twins as one person which is why dipper is obviously on this list (and mabel as one of my fav characters too but that's for another entry). I very deeply enjoy his geekiness and i too get way to involved in things i like where i then would prefer to stay in my room and focus on that all summer. He actually is much braver than me because me personally if my grunkle told me ‘go put these signs in the spooky forest’ id say no way old man #imout because what the hell dawg im 12 and you’re 842 or something like that; YOU do it. Also dipper pines just goes hard as hell as a name as does his real name (mason)

Quick honorable mentions: chidi anagonye, ben wyatt (the goat), all 4 boys in the heroes of olympus main cast (i wrote a whole essay on Frank in middle school actually), adam parrish (just remembered he existed actually. I should re-read the raven cycle maybe), Laois from dungeon meshi, and some others im forgetting IDK

Final character i’ll write about: Carter Kane (The Kane Chronicles)

Okay im gonna be so real with you and say that ive kind of created a fanon version of carter in my head in which he wasn't as focused on finding Zia as he actually was in the books and actually had more weight in helping the mission because re-reading the series a few years ago i realized Sadie had to do a lot of heavy carrying even though in book 1 he was painted as a more serious and ‘dedicated to the mission’ kind of character. He also, like everyone else on this list, falls into the ‘really into the stuff he’s into and also is awkward and not physically strong but still very dedicated’ so yeah i think i have a theme here. Shoutout carter kane. Your name also goes hard as hell like dippers

Current Music: yum (kepler)

I have a new motto for school work next year: “good enough, move on”. i think that to most people, this would sound like laziness; like rather than actually putting in effort to actually create something good, i’m just allowing myself to be content with mediocrity. But that's just it: i need to be okay with mediocrity sometimes, because an ‘eh’ grade is better than none at all. I failed my history class this semester in which i had gotten an 100 on every assignment so far and a 90-something on the midterm. I was one of the people who frequently made comments in class, i submitted all my work on time, all the stuff you’re supposed to do to be a good student in a uni class. And it definitely showed as even on my report for failure of a class, my professor wrote that i was an active student and a ‘pleasure to have in class’. So like…. What went wrong? Well, it was the fact that i never submitted 2 final assignments: a final essay and a analysis of a primary source. Both of these should have been so easy for me to do, but i just never found a ‘right time’ or right feeling to start them. ive convinced myself that i have to do everything perfect or close to what i believe is “right” first time around because it drives me crazy otherwise. I am NOT a “first draft” person because having anything messy or “wrong” drives me insane. Whether its a simple homework reflection, a 15 page research paper, a 1 sentence text message, or a dreamwidth blog idea, the majority of the things i think never actually get put to paper (or screen i guess) because i don’t think its good enough to exist and be observed, even if its just by me. Now obviously teh things i mentioned are all things that others will see and interpret (especially the school work stuff) and thats what makes me not want to submit it. I would rather fail by submitting nothing to be judged than get anything below an 88% on something i created s because that means whatever i made was unworthy in the eyes of someone else. I just prefer to outright fail than admit i can create mediocracy. But like my dad brought up the point that the 2 assignments i didnt do could have been absolutely terrible but if i had just submitted something, i probably wouldn't have failed the class. I dont know why im like this too because when i even do rush assignments and submit work i dont think is good, i still get Bs and As anyways so its not that im dumb its just that im way too scared of pissibly being seen as dumb or lacking that id almost rather be seen as lazy and uncaring by not submitting stuff. So to try and get over that mental blockade, ive decided that every day, i have to write and upload something to here (dreamwidth) for the next hmm… month. Yes that sounds good. Until june 29th i have to write something by midnight of every day and put it on my dreamwidth blog even if i think it sucks and isnt anything useful; I just have to put words down and move on. I’ll have a 250 word minimum so i cant just get away with a song lyric that was copy and pasted because man im not submitting song lyrics as assignments (well actually one assignment i did procrastinate one time was submitting a song in a google form so wow damn maybe i do just need to write a single sentence but ok no im sticking with 250 words). Also yes, i did proscrastiate THIS entry until less than an hour before my “deadline” but hey, at least i got it done! Yeah, this entry is good enough. I think ill move on now. See you tomorrow!

wait actually one last thing: MANNN i dont wanna have full days of work for the next two days fml fml for real #lazybum ok bye now seriously

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: my bed
Current Music: catallena (orange caramel)

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